I am a *itch: My Reintroduction

Love Your Now Comadre
Aug 2
5 min read

Updated: Aug 7

Comadre Cristal- Spiritual Mentor & Bruja Coach

I’ve always loved magic.

As a child, I believed in dreams and wishes with my whole heart. I would wish upon stars and whisper my hopes into the night sky, fully expecting the universe to respond. That kind of belief...the innocent, wild-hearted kind...was real for me. Until it wasn’t.

The moment mi papi passed away, everything shifted. My belief in magic… and in God… shattered. I stopped wishing on stars. I stopped believing there was anything or anyone listening. I was angry at the universe, at God. And yet, even in that silence, something in me still longed for enchantment. I wanted to believe but didn't know where. So fantasy kept that spark alive. As a young adult, I was a proud Potterhead (proud Hufflepuff here) and a ride-or-die Twilight fan (Team Jacob). Then came Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, and Dungeons & Dragons. All stories of magic, of light and dark, of courage and power. But it wasn’t the heroes I found myself relating to always, sometimes it was the “villains.” The misunderstood ones. The powerful ones. The ones who refused to conform!

In college, I took a class about fairytales that cracked something open. We examined the symbolism in the stories we grew up knowing. One that caught my attention was the Witch. Why were witches always depicted as single, ugly, angry? Why were they always cast as the threat to innocence? Why was their independence feared, their power punished? I began to realize that the danger wasn’t in their magic... it was in their refusal to be controlled. Strong, intelligent, independent women were made out to be evil witches.

And that hit home. Was I a witch?

As I stepped into the work of domestic violence advocacy, I met fierce women who defied expectations and protected others with fire in their bellies. These women were bold, unapologetic, and deeply compassionate. The best part, many were practicing witches, I was in awe. They weren’t evil. They were powerful. They were healers. Protectors. Guides. I wanted to be like them, but didn't know how.

The how came 2015, I met Lynette. She was a witch and proud to be one. She introduced me to tarot, herbs, and crystals, and encouraged me to explore my own magic. She always said she could see it in me. She believed in me. After her passing in 2020, I immersed myself into my craft...not to find answers, but to find peace within myself.

That’s when the healing began.

In 2021, I joined Al-Anon. Al-Anon reconnected me with the concept of a Higher Power...a higher power of my understanding. God felt foreign to me, I struggled to feel connected to God since mi papi's passing. So I decided to make my own Higher Power of my understanding. For me, that power became a divine feminine presence. I started praying again, not to the god I was raised with, but to the goddess I was rediscovering. I started to read my tarot cards with reverence, to work with candles and herbs with intention, to trust in something greater. Something ancient. That was when I created Love Your Now Tarot. My first public declaration of my spiritual gifts. It was beautiful and terrifying. I met others on this path, fellow witches and brujas who showed me that I wasn’t alone. And I met many people who did not understand me or agree with my beliefs. And so I still kept parts of me hidden. I still feared the judgment, the misunderstanding, the whispers from family, friends, associates all shaped by my own Catholic guilt and cultural stigma. Even when I rebranded to Love Your Now Comadre. I still kept many parts of myself hidden.

Then came 2024.

This year tested my faith, shook me to my core. It was where I leaned 110% to my craft and practice. Than the way the year ended with an election heartbreak, it revealed what I already knew deep down: silence is no longer an option. Hiding is no longer sustainable. Our world needs healers, guides, protectors. Our world needs Brujas!!! I love the song by Devon Cole called W.I.T.C.H.—Woman In Total Control of Herself. I remember the first time I heard it I felt something rise in me. Today I am rising! Rising a reclamation. I am a witch. I am a bitch. I am the itch that makes people uncomfortable. And I own all of it. Soy Bruja!

Because being a Bruja is not about casting spells or wearing black. It’s about listening to your inner knowing. It’s about believing in a power beyond logic, a connection to something sacred. It’s about speaking your truth and standing in your values...even when it’s scary. Even when it’s misunderstood. The biggest misconception I had to unlearn was that Witches or Brujas are evil. I was raised Catholic in a 1.5 generation Mexican household. I was taught that brujería was dark and dangerous. But brujería or witchcraft are not one thing. There are many kinds of witches, crafts, and magic. Just like there are many kinds of faiths. Witchcraft, at its heart, is a conversation with the divine. For me, my craft has transformed into a prayer to Mother Mary. It’s a devotion to healing. It’s an offering of love.

Working with Mother Mary has helped me reclaim my faith, not in religion, but in relationship. I had to unlearn so much of what I was taught to find the truth of who She really is. (If you’re curious, The Way of the Rose is a beautiful place to begin.)

This blog, this episode, this moment...it is my reintroduction.

This is Love Your Now Comadre, reborn.

This is me stepping fully into the light as a Bruja, as a guide, as a Woman In Total Control of Herself. Not because I have all the answers. But because I have faith. And that’s enough.

I believe in magic. I believe in healing. I believe in us.

So if you’ve ever felt the whisper of power inside you… if you’ve ever questioned your place in this world… if you’ve ever been called too much, too emotional, too strong, too witchy—this is your invitation.

✨ The bruja, brujo, or brujx inside you is ready.

✨ It is time to come home to your power.

✨ It is time to Love Your Now.

Ready to walk your path with power?

If this story resonates with your soul, I invite you to explore deeper healing through 1:1 spiritual mentorship, or upcoming workshops. Together, let’s reclaim the magic that’s always been yours. Book your consultation today.

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